all that shimmers is sure to fade.

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Tue, 15 Nov 2011 22:30:01 -0500

Sun, 13 Nov 2011 14:15:33 -0500

That night changed my life. Who I was before is a distant memory, like looking back on the pages of a book. A life you used to know but can never get back. That night was the last night I got a good night’s sleep. That night was the last time I saw your sweet face. Could I have done something more? Could I have not walked out on you and shut the door? See, you were special to me. Why did I do this to you?

I’m at the funeral, looking into the eyes of your family. They didn’t know. I did. I walk up to you thinking you would be there, but you weren’t. I looked at you, knowing you and me only knew the moments we shared. I can’t help but feel guilty. You told me so many times you were scared. People stare. I stare back. My guard is down, my world is black. I have no defense, my heart only sinks because I’m to blame. I know I shouldn’t blame myself. But don’t you see? If I hadn’t shut the window on you that night, I’d still be me. And you would be smiling. Living your life. But this tragedy that happened was a result of my games. I ruined you. And sometimes on days like this, I only feel shame.

I miss you. How could something so special turn into something so dark?

Not a smoker, I only smoke when I drink. But if this was real,...

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 12:53:32 -0500

Not a smoker, I only smoke when I drink. But if this was real, i’d buy.

Happy veteran’s day everyone! I don’t know anyone in...

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 12:49:35 -0500

Happy veteran’s day everyone! I don’t know anyone in the army but I thank the people who serve and risk their lives for us now. My best friend who just passed away recently wanted to be in the army, it was his dream. A dream unfortunately, he didn’t get to live to do. rest in peace babe<3 GOD BLESS.

follow me :)

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 22:14:00 -0500

hey guys, follow me and i promise promise promise i’ll follow back k thanks :)

cold beer in my hand, cig in the other. no worries in the world....

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 22:08:12 -0500

cold beer in my hand, cig in the other. no worries in the world. weekend tomorrow boo yah!

shanimals: I need this app to make me feel guilty about my poor...

Thu, 10 Nov 2011 10:57:19 -0500

shanimals:

I need this app to make me feel guilty about my poor money decisions.

same.. lmao

clearly i'm retarded

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 22:43:00 -0500

No idea how to work this code shit in order to customize my profile. Looks like it’s back to them myspace days. Just joined tumblr not that long ago. It’s already addicting so expect me to be on here a lot during my free time.. thanks for all who have followed me so far :) special thanks to fuckyeahmims! Goodnight fellow tumblr’s. <3

my second love<3

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 22:22:37 -0500

my second love<3

You are my one hundredth follower. Thank you so much! :) I had to thank you personally since this has been a goal of mine ever since I joined tumblr. ! :D

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 22:18:11 -0500

aww haha thank youuu :) i feel so special! i’m so new here I have like 4 followers lol. I have no ideaaa how to get the ask button on my page etc etc :( I love your layout btwww!

fuckyeahmims: How cute?! fucking adorable<3

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 22:15:24 -0500

fuckyeahmims:

How cute?!

fucking adorable<3

my love <3

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 21:41:23 -0500

my love <3

9blooeyes5: How wrong is that? :/ Strong believer in the...

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 22:50:48 -0500

9blooeyes5:

How wrong is that? :/

Strong believer in the prevention of suicide. this picture broke my heart. reblog if you agree.

<3

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 22:47:13 -0500

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Tue, 08 Nov 2011 22:35:58 -0500

Friendship into Love

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 19:28:00 -0500

Can’t love be a dangerous thing? It can kill you inside with the biggest butterflies or the biggest knife. But what is friendship? Can friendship develop into love? Can love develop from friendship? Probably. But do you want it to happen? HELL NO. I recently lost one of my best friends to suicide. He was my ex but before that he was my best friend. I wish so deeply I would’ve just stayed friends. Cause love from friendship my friends is a messy business that leaves blood, tears, and heartache. That’s what I’m left with everyday. Some days good, some days bad. But when I go out with our friends boy do I get mad. Why aren’t you here?

Friendship Love= DISASTER.

love this<3

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 13:47:00 -0500

love this<3

My First Post

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 13:32:00 -0500

So since I love to write and basically write a lot, I figured I would make one of these. I have a lot going on in my life. I’m 18 years old, a normal girl except for the shit I have been through. I know what you are thinking, another girl complaining about her life tumblr but that is not the case. I just need an outlet. Even if no one follows me. But if you do, well, that’s cool too. I hope you guys all like my blog! Still figuring out how to use this thing…